In My Mid-Thirties, Educated, No Relationship, No Career, Nothing, Thinking Of Ending It All

Good day,aunty Eya.Pls,hide my identity.its going to be long,pls bear with me.
I don't no where to start from but I'll start from when I graduated from the university in 2006,so after my NYSC in 2007,I started job hunting! I couldn't get any so I went to OAU to do a course in GIS,I finished 2008.I went evrywhere in search of job to no avail.

I had interview with Leadway Assurance,Oando,Schlumberger but I wld nt b called for the job.Even the schools I applied to,I was not called.i had a dream that a mark is on me that I shld go 2MFM for deliverance,I don't no y d church was mentioned to me in the dream(dat was since 2012),I went for 3days fasting(no food,no water).A senator even wrote a letter for me for job all to no avail.

I went to see
Pastors and I was told dat I should pray that God should restore my glory.Funny thing is that am almost in my mid-thirties and no man has ever asked me out,still @my parents house and dey are feeding me.I was called last week for an interview,I knew I did well and they said they will get back to me of which dey didn't up till now.

I fast and I am still even going for deliverance programs @MFM tomorrow but am beginning to think there's no God.I have been very depressed and have been thinking of ending it all.I don't know where av got it all wrong! I wake up in the middle of d night to pray,I smile,dress well,read inspirational books.

pls,don't abuse me because am already down emotionally! I don't want 2014 to end without achieving something in life.How do I stop this disappointment @d point of my breakthrough? Pls,I need advice on what to do.

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  1. Poster, don't end it pleasssssss. I can swear you are not the only one going through hard times. Life can be very difficult for some people while others just swim in good fortunes, effortlessly turning everything they touch to gold. Such is life.

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  2. My dear sister I know exatly how u feel but just know one thing" there is God" hmm,I suffered the same trauma when I was not yet married,my parents didn't make it better cos anytime I ask them of money they will tell me how they are suffering to feed me and my sibilings,I didn't hv any boyfriend as in eeh no man dey even stop me for road say hi but one day I decided to further my education and the person that was in the position to help me get form for the school was my long time husband(I.e when I was still a kid he use to call me his wife) I refused to let him help me cause I don't know what he has turn into for the past 7yrs we saw last but atlast he insisted and helped me without my knowlegde(N ; B they is this prayer I do attend in my church is for every one but I took it seriouse and put every thing in prayer including not been in a relationship) hmm my sister God inventually hard my prayer and that my kid housband helped through that my programme and finally got married to me,all this my storry end in one sentence"the plan he has for u is of good and not of evil, that will give u an unexpected end says thy Lord".

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    1. Anonymous7/16/2014

      Thanks 4d encouragement!

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  3. Poster ar u planning to kill urself or Wat?? U don't av to cos there is God, he has a way of doing things, God's tot for his children is of good and nt of evil, do u remember d story of job in d bible?? At d end Wat happened?? Read 1 chronicles 4:10, dats d prayer of jabeez, pray it all d time, is a 10secs prayer, I pray dat God will remember u soon, is well sis

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  4. Anonymous7/16/2014

    Sister it is well oh.. When God will do it for u it will be like magic. Please don't give up on prayers

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  5. Anonymous7/16/2014

    poster some people are in your shoes and do not have either of parent to feed her. nor a roof over her head. please don't give up. God only test those he loves and believe this no any condition is permanent. it will sure come to past.

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  6. you are complaining.wait until i open my mouth.the world is like that.its from my situation that i found the meaning of somebody complaining bc he doesn't have a good pair of shoes till he saw another human beings without legs but.my dear take it easy and remain steadfast in your prayers. thank God you can pray.some people in worst situation than yours do not know the meaning of prayers.remain blessed.

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  7. Anonymous7/16/2014

    i bet you, ur solution is very close, dont be discouraged, it is well with you, very soon the good God will perfect all that concerns you. dont give up.every body has a story to tell, just put urself together it is well.

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  8. Anonymous7/16/2014

    my dear relocate frm were u are staying first. then keep praying but if u dnt relocate u are on ur own, try dat

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    1. Anonymous7/16/2014

      Thanks for dis! Av been pondering on dis several tyms,even wanted to include it in d post. Will try to relocate b4 d end of dis year by God's grace! Thanks. Poster

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    2. Please can you clarify why you suggested she relocate?
      Just really curious and I'm asking with genuine interest. Thanks.

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  9. Anonymous7/16/2014

    My dear.i can imagine what u r going through..pls pls just hang in there..help is on its way..God is watching nd with him all things r possible..

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  10. Don't be idle...go learn a hand work and d right man will find yÓu(catering,tailoring,bead making etc)

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  11. Try going into business

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  12. Anonymous7/17/2014

    Don't give up, your miracle is on the way

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  13. Anonymous7/17/2014

    My dear rejoice... you are at the tip of the breakthru. Ur prayers are just abt to beanswrted. The evi hosts are acting up. Here is a secret. On the day u are born ex mon fast dry that day. At 3 am get up and in Jesus name release every blessing of urs that is hidden even in the depths. Command fire to burn every lock every security. I mean have no mercy and rebule the devil. Then praise God. Ask the angels to retrieve every blessing that is urs. Stary to name them. Say i know receive in my own hands. Bless God and thank Him. Wut 3 days. God will do it. U r so close my dear. Do give up. MFM prayers are powerful. Use them. God is ur help!

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  14. Anonymous7/17/2014

    * be answered * evil hosts * rebuke *start * I now *Wait * dont
    sorry for typos.

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  15. Anonymous7/17/2014

    Poster, God is your strength. After relocation, continue going to church, you are on the right path. Believe in HIM, your miracle is on the way and you will testify in JN. No matter how hard and sorrowful it is, there is joy at the end. God bless you xx

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  16. Anonymous7/17/2014

    Some pple s breaktru was to come by 12.00, they ended it all at 11.59-Lady Eva

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  17. Anonymous7/18/2014

    Dear poster, sorry to hear this. Why would anyone insult you over this. Here is what I'd like to say
    It is good to pray mfm prayers ie binding, loosing and such but remember to kneel down in supplication to God, cry out to him in tears .....I wish I could say that praying will automatically make things better but I know that's not true.
    Please ask your parents to pray for you. Let them bless you, let them cancel every evil pronouncement upon your life
    Please be always cheerful, educate yourself with books (not only religious books), expand your mind and your horizon
    Please see if it is possible for you to relocate; it's not as hard as it always seems. My cousin searched and searched in Lagos but was able to get a fantastic job in ekiti state
    Maybe you could start your own business, there's a recent post on Stella dimoko blog where people discussed various businesses that can be started with little money . It was a post where the woman said she had 2 million naira but other people gave other suggestions with small money
    Give thanks for the roof over your head, for health, for the education you have. Imagine if you were one of the girls kidnapped by book haram
    Never give up, I've seen things change for better for people in a day
    Drop a comment with what you studied in school and I might be able to give specific pointers on how to improve yourself career wise
    God bless you

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    1. Anonymous7/18/2014

      Wao!amazing blog

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    2. Anonymous7/18/2014

      Thanks for ur wonderful advice for her. God bless you.

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  18. Anonymous7/18/2014

    Dearie, ur case is even better than my own then but I thank GOD is all past now. Like wat anonymous (Chi, is dat you) 5:50 said RELOCATE very fast. I n a friend of mine were a worst situation some few yrs ago. Graduated no job no marriage, we were in our 30s' became a laughin stock of some women in our area dat were not even legally married to de men dey were living wit in face me I face u house dat we all were livin in then. (We were even squatting there. Long story) but continue to believe in God n finally we were forcefully pushed out with no where to go but dat was de miracle. We went to squat again separately. She went into bizness,(she into millions now) I change jobs like wrappers. We re both married now & re both die hard membas of WC. I 4got to add dat prayer city was our second home then (deliverance tins) but no show. More importantly pray with understandin using de word of God . All those things u re seeking 4 re your birth rights as a child of God. Psalm 87:3 says Glorious thins re spoken of thee O city of God. Dat refers to u-the new creation in Christ Jesus. Read 2corin1:3-4. If u need sombody to talk n pray wit. Queenet23@yahoo.com. cyber hugs.

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  19. Anonymous7/18/2014

    Thanks for ur wonderful comments and encouragement! I appreciate u all and I pray God grants all ur heart desires. I will make sure I also relocate b4 d year ends! Thanks once again! Poster

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  20. My dear, ℓ̊ have a lot of things to say to ƴ۵џ buh ℓ̊'vent got time... However †ђ3 lcm of all ℓ̊ wanna say is "don't throw in †ђ3 towel yet"

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  21. Anonymous7/27/2014

    How do u dress? Do u hv good manners? How good is ur hygiene? How free r u to mix up? Do u mix up? Are u all those uptight ladies wit so many rigid principles? U jus told us ur story but no 1 can successfuly giv u a true solution wit jus that! Cos they dnt knw ur physicall qualities or attributes but check ursef n advice ursef sincerely n like i will still advice again pray witout ceasing! I hope u will get dis 3 comments i jus dropped

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