I don’t know how to say this, came the trembling voice at the other end of the phone, then it followed with silence. During those split seconds, I was reminded of how the mind works and how 5 seconds could seem like forever. I was made to think about several things; asked myself several questions and it seemed like I travelled back in time to correct a particular wrong. The scream of ‘hello, are you still there’ jolted me back to reality. I eventually managed to say the words, ‘please tell me exactly what the results are; it can’t be thatbad after all’. She eventually said ‘congratulations, we both passed’. I screamed ‘thank you Jesus, hard work really paid off this time’.
I made up my mind to prepare 4 months for a 3 days examination; this only took grace and a conscious effort. I still had to go to work sometimes, weekends inclusive and I hope you can relate with me when I say- It wasn’t easy at all. This may not be news to you- after all, everyone writes exams and people pass. Why don’t you hold on and read a little about why I was that excited.
I had written this same examination twice and still FAILED it; here I was, someone who is meant to encourage and motivate people and couldn’t do well in an exam other people saw as a walk through.
YES! Truth be told, the first time I took the exam, I didn’t prepare well enough. There was going to be a public holiday at that time, hence, I stopped preparing and hoped that the examination would be postponed. When I found out it wouldn’t be postponed, I let the lie that I was going to do well (without going through due diligence) filter into my being. The result dished out the expected when a friend of mine whom we had written the exam together did well and I had to reseat that level. This feeling of defeat was tough.
The second time, I can’t quite figure out what happened but I know I didn’t do well also. Now I know no amount of excuse I give will cover for my low/bad performance, hence the last time, I made up my mind to give it my all.
It may not even have being an exam, it may have been a business venture, a project, a step or whatsoever it is; I understand you tried and put in all your best but yet, it didn’t work out or like me, you feel you failed not only yourself but a lot of people. Listen to this; it takes faith to try again after failure.
If you have done something one way and it didn’t work out, may I commend your effort ‘coz you have found out one way NOT to do that thing. There is no single way to achieving something, hence give it another try and this time, put in your best yet again. Remember, whatever happens, you’re learning.
Trust me; success is sweet especially after the hard work you put in paid off in the end.